Burned Out

This morning, I had a terrible dream.

I’ll just say that in said dream, a (biologically) close family member assaulted me in a way that when I woke up, I felt sick and filthy and took a long, burning hot shower.

Said family member has never done this in real life, one should note. But the dream was enough that I’ve felt very off all day long.

I have been very off lately in general, though. Not just this morning, but for a while now.

This weekend, I am going on a small sebatical. I am not going to have the internet. I will have my phone off. I will not try to contact anyone. I will not worry about one else but me.

I think this will be good for me. I hope so. The way my stomach has been lately, I wouldn’t be surprised if I got an ulcer. I really would rather not have one.

There are lines in my forehead, and one starting along the groove between my nose and the corner of my mouth. Whatever that’s called.

I’m too young to feel like this.